Emotional Roller Coaster
0Now that things are settling down a bit, I figured I share with everyone the emotional roller coaster I’ve been on lately.
Earlier this year (or perhaps it was late last year) I was asked by one of my best friends, Zack, to be one of the best men in his wedding. I was honored he asked me, and super psyched since the wedding would be near Daytona Beach in the beginning of February. Needless to say, I was pretty excited.
The night before we left for Florida, Danielle decided to take a home pregnancy test, just to clear up any questions, since we had been trying for a couple of months. Surprise, Surprise! It came back positive…and the next one…and the next one! We were shocked at first, but so excited! What a great way to start our trip!
Our flight down was great, and we got to fly with Zack’s Mom & Dad as well as his Sister, Brother-in-Law, and their two kids. It was definitely nice to fly with friends.
The weekend of the wedding was some of the most fun I’ve ever had. It was so nice to be with Dave, Dan, and Zack…dear friends who I consider brothers, but I don’t get to see all too often since they’ve all relocated to Florida.
Fast forward to last week.
Danielle went to Sayre for her first Dr. appointment to see how everything was progressing. After some hemming and hawing, the Dr. informed Danielle that either the baby had stopped developing or the pregnancy was tubal. You can imagine the shock and grief that Danielle felt when learning the news. Danielle called me around 4:55 to let me know, and I don’t think I have ever been more devastated in my life.
This past week has been a series of emotions…anger, frustration, incredible sadness, comfort, questioning…and just about any other emotion you can throw in that list.
It’s funny, I tend to usually get mad at God first. I guess He’s an easy target, since he’s not “here” (at least in physical form). The great thing about God is that He can handle us being mad at Him. He can handle the outbursts. He can handle the questions. If He couldn’t…He wouldn’t be God.
This whole ordeal has really made me think about eternity also. It’s funny, I’ve always believed in Heaven and knew that I was going to Heaven, but now it HAS to exist…not so much for me, but for my son. I know He’s in the arms of the Father now.
Which brings me to another point. Even though I know Enoch (we named him Enoch because that is what Jared in the Bible names his son and because Enoch was taken by God) is in Heaven, that doesn’t fill this gaping hole in my heart. Yes it helps, but it doesn’t bring him back. I know that God works things together for our good, and that helps, but that doesn’t fix the hurt.
Also, please don’t tell me that a fetus is not a person. Tell that to my hurting wife. Tell that to the would be Grandma and Grandpas who now don’t have a grandson. Please don’t tell me that at all. How anyone can believe that is beyond me. I know that’s not very P.C. of me, but that’s how I feel.
I feel like I’ll never be the same, and I don’t think that’s a bad thing. I know that I need to move on, and that, yes, things will work out for good. For now I just want to work through these emotions and grieve the loss of my son, and get to moving on eventually.
Stimulus Breakdown
0If you care where your “stimulus” money is being spent – and you should – you can check out my Google Spreadsheet.
Ped Egg
2I don’t usually put too much stock in infomercial products, but I used one this weekend that really works as advertised.
During the winter, my feet get cracked like crazy (nasty, I know). They were especially bad this weekend, so my sister-in-law suggested I use her Ped Egg. The one part of the Ped Egg is basically a miniaturized cheese grader for your foot. It did it’s job, but it definitely didn’t feel that great.
The part that really helped was the buffer. It basically sanded the rough spots off my foot. I just took a look at my feet tonight, and all the cracked skin is completely gone.
Ped Egg definitely has my endorsement.
How Far the iPod Has Come
0I’m writing this post from my new iPod touch. The iPod sure has come a long way since the original model came out not 10 years ago.
Awesome Road Sign Hack
0You’ve heard about the zombies and raptors ahead, but this sign is the best.
Biggest Pet Peeve
2My biggest pet peeve is when people do not pay any sort of respect during the national anthem. It really irks me to no end.
Just read today that is part of the US code that you must put your hand over your heart when the anthem is played and a flag is visible.
What are some of your pet peeves ?
Crazy Get Rich Schemes
0I don’t know how people fall for crazy get rich schemes on the internet.
I stumbled across one through an ad at Facebook this afternoon.
This post was supposedly written by Dave, the guy on the right. He’s showing us a picture of the huge check he received from Google. Only problem is that the check is made out to a Kevin.
I clicked through to learn a little more, and in the teeny tiny print it mentions that the kit is free (plus $1.95 shipping). It then goes on to mention that the offer is free for 7 days, and then it renews on your credit card for $39.95 a month.
Do your homework, people. Read the fine print, and watch out for guys like Dave.
Stimulus Insanity
2The Senate is poised to pass another stimulus package at some point this week.
I’m no Economist, but it seems that these bailouts are never going to end, and we are just setting ourselves up for disaster, instead of letting the free market take care of things. Yes, it would be painful, but I believe things would work out in the end. Again, I might be wrong.
Any way, I just got done reading an article on Bloomberg that puts the price tag on all the bailouts over the last couple years to $9.7 TRILLION!!!! If you figure there are about 300 million U.S. citizens, that comes out to a check for the amount of $32,333.33 to every citizen.
Seems like a check that size would most definitely stimulate the economy.
Good Move, Mr. Rodriguez
0Unless you don’t follow sports at all, you know that Alex Rodriguez tested positive for steroids in 2003, a move that puts a giant blemish on his career.
However, unlike many other cheaters in baseball, it only took him a couple of days to fess up. I believe this will help him a great deal, at least in the court of public opinion.
Does he still make it into the Hall of Fame? That’s hard to say. This definitely doesn’t help.
I like the idea that was tossed around on Around the Horn today. Just go back to the 60′s or 70′s, and then throw out any major records set after that point, since we don’t know which ones are “clean” and which ones aren’t.
It’s sad to see America’s pastime become so tainted.
Apple Store Elevator
0During our recent trip to New York we visited the Manhattan Apple Store – the “Glass Cube”
The store is absolutely amazing, even if you aren’t an Apple fan.
Here is a video I shot on our way up the elevator.