I thought today would be a great time to share a testimony of God’s faithfulness in our lives over the past 18 months.
As many of you know, we had a miscarriage in March of 2009. It was an event that almost devastated us. I questioned God. I was angry at Him. How could He let this happen? He could have prevented it and He didn’t. Why? Why? Why?
Life isn’t fair, unfortunately. Bad stuff happens for no apparent reason. Although God was working throughout the whole situation, even though I couldn’t see it at the time.
We have met so many people who are struggling with miscarriages and attempts at pregnancy. We’ve grown to love each of those people and we can truly empathize with what they’re going through.
We know the joy / pain of having friends get pregnant, while month after month we couldn’t conceive. It wasn’t fair. We hurt so deeply ourselves but were happy for those friends and family as well. It’s such a hard situation.
And then the past couple months. Something has been different. God has really been moving at our church and in our lives. I practically forced Danielle to come up front for prayer with me a few weeks ago, and this may sound hokey, but I felt God birth something in me. Or maybe more like a rebirth. I regained much of the passion that had been missing in my life. I feel like I’ve become more outspoken (to some people’s chagrin).
I was even able to have a in depth conversation about my beliefs and feelings with my boss and his wife!
That next week I gave a testimony in church of God’s moving in our lives.
Then mom gave a testimony a couple weeks later, I believe.
We met with Pastor James shortly thereafter, and he shared that he felt we needed to open our hearts to other options (adoption, foster care, etc.). We were receptive to what he had to say.
Shortly after that we ended up watching a sweet baby boy for just 1 night and we both agreed that we were OK not having kids for a while. Have a 1-year old is a lot of work!
Not 2 days later Danielle found out she was pregnant! We just had our first official appointment this past Friday (09/10), and we got the official news.
I turned 30 on 09/09. What a birthday present. I had decided a while ago to get a tattoo in remembrance of Enoch, our baby from our first miscarriage. Because Danielle couldn’t get one now, I decided to get one that said God is faithful, which was something I was planning even before we found out.
I saw all this to say, if you’re going through a hard time, turn to Jesus. He’s the only ONE who can get you through and work everything for your good and His glory!
To our friends that are still struggling, please know that we love you. We ache for you. We’re praying for you, and God loves you!